$37 INTRODUCTORY PRICING FOR VOL. 1 EXTENDED TO 10-09-2026 AT 5PM EST.
$297 STANDARD PRICING FOR THE FULL COLLECTION BEGINS IMMEDIATELY AFTER.
A rare, posthumous, soul-level look into my sadistic, narcissistic mother's inner world
Into her ego, the forces that shaped her, the dominating presence her spirit said had driven so much of her abusive behavior, the deeper soul-level WHY behind our relationship, and more.
Volume 1 became much bigger than a conversation with my narcissistic mother's spirit.
Through a professional psychic medium, I had three channeling sessions with my narcissistic mother's spirit and one with my enabler father's spirit.
I uncovered soul-level answers about the abuse, my relationship with my mother, the dysfunctional family I grew up in, the parent who hurt me, the parent who allowed it, and the dynamics I spent most of my life trying to understand.
Volume 1 takes you inside those channeled conversations and the answers that gave me an entirely different understanding of the life I've lived, the roles my parents played in it, and the soul-level understanding behind everything I thought I already understood.
I kept coming back to the same question:
WHY?
Like you, I already understood maternal narcissistic abuse at the human level.
But understanding WHAT happened at the human level never fully answered WHY it happened.
WHY did my mother choose me as her target?
WHY did my happiness provoke her?
WHY didn't she love me?
WHY was she capable of such creulty?
WHY did she get worse as she aged?
WHY did my father stay and allow it to continue?
WHY was he so passive and enabling?
My questions were ENDLESS...
So I did something most people would never do
Two years after my parents died, I invested $10,000 into a six-month contract with a professional psychic medium so I could ask her every hard question I had about WHY.
Over the course of 2 1/2 years, I transcribed the recorded channeled conversations word for word, then wove in my reactions and interpretations to create Volume 1 of Talking to the Light.
What emerged is a rare, soul-level lens into maternal narcissistic abuse through conversations with the spirits of the mother who abused me and the father who let it happen.
Go inside the 3 channeled conversations with my narcissistic mother's spirit
Imagine sitting across from the spirit of the mother who abused you. Who would show up: the mother you knew or the mother you always wished for?
What would it feel like to finally ask the hardest questions about how she treated you and how deeply she hurt you? Would you feel anger, fear, longing, heartbreak, compassion? What about disbelief, sadness, hope, resentment? Or all of them at once?
That was the emotional reality of these sessions for me as I confronted the woman who had terrified me while trying to understand WHY. It's a good thing I had a box of tissues at the ready because I ugly cried when I wasn't feeling angry.
The conversations reached into her childhood, her rage, her addictions, the way she experienced me as her daughter, the abuse I survived, the deeper soul-level story behind our relationship, and more. Now I understand WHY. You'll read it all.
Go inside the channeled conversation with my enabler father's spirit
My father's session opened a different set of questions. He had lived beside my mother for nearly six decades, witnessed what was happening in our home, and remained largely passive while I struggled to protect myself and, at times, protect him from her.
I asked his spirit why he didn't divorce his abusive wife, why he didn't stop her from hurting me, what life with my mother had really been like for him, what fear and helplessness looked like from inside their marriage, what he could finally see about his role in our family now that he's on the other side, and more. I was blown away by what came through.
That conversation gave me access to a unique perspective I'd never had when he was alive: my father's side of the story and the inner world of the parent who didn't cause the abuse, but whose silence, fear, and enabling allowed it to continue for almost six decades. Now I understand my dad. You'll read all of it.
The rest of Volume 1:
Prologue: When the Truth Stopped Whispering
Introducing 53 years of gaslighting myself, including the harrowing six months I was a live-in caregiver for my parents during the height of the covid pandemic.
Interlude: My Mother's Death and its Chaotic Aftermath
Explaining the panic, confusion, and chaotic aftermath of my narcissistic mother’s death.
Short explanation of why I needed more than therapy
Why therapy validated what happened to me, but still left me searching for the deeper WHY-- and why I eventually went off the beaten path for answers.
My reactions and interpretations woven throughout every channeled transcript
So you can follow both what came through and how I processed it in real time.
Post-Healing Appendix 1.1
A transcribed except from the 90-minute video I recorded on my iPhone during a late-night confrontation with my mother in October 2020. This is the night I finally stood up for myself after 53 years of gaslighting. This was the beginning of my awakening.
Post-Healing Appendix 1.2
My later understanding of the triggers and emotional environment surrounding my mother during her final year, written from the other side of healing's clear interpretation instead of from inside the chaos.
Post-Healing Appendix 1.3
What I came to understand about personal power after healing further, including the irony of learning how to use it from the spirits of the mother who stripped mine away and the father who had never been able to use his own.
"I knew insights from the other side would be the missing link in my healing from narcissistic abuse. Turns out I was right." ~Carole
PLEASE READ BEFORE YOU PURCHASE
This collection contains references to sensitive, sometimes intense, potentially triggering material. Occasional profanity.
The content in Talking to the Light reflects deeply personal spiritual experiences, channeled conversations with spirit, and emotional interpretations that may feel intense.
These experiences are not presented as verified facts or universal truths. They reflect my lived experience and belief system only.
Your interpretation of the material and your emotional, psychological, or spiritual response to it is your own responsibility.
I am not a therapist and this does not replace therapy.
No refunds, full or partial.
IMPORTANT NOTE: $37 IS THE INTRODUCTORY PRICE FOR VOL. 1 THROUGH OCTOBER 9, 2026 AT 5PM EST. AFTER THAT, THE STANDARD PRICE WILL BE $297 FOR THE FULL COLLECTION.