[Note: Talking to the Light is a 3-volume answers project. This page is for learning about and purchasing Volume 1 only. Content on this page that does not appear in Vol 1 is duly noted.]
Volume 1: Where the answers began
A daughter of a narcissistic mother asks why through channeling her deceased parents' spirits from the other side.
Gain deeper understanding of maternal narcissistic abuse through the answers I received from the other side that helped me move from confusion, self-doubt, and survival into grounded power and inner peace.
For adult daughters of narcissistic mothers who still have unanswered questions and want clarity, insight, and perspective through my 58 years of lived experience.
Talking to the Light is 3 volumes containing 9 channeling sessions that helped me move from confusion, self-doubt, and survival mode into clarity, grounded power, and inner peace.
The insights in them may help you understand your own experience more clearly.
Gain an unprecedented, posthumous view into the mind of my narcissistic mother, her psyche, her ego, her addictions, her confessions, and the dominating force within that her spirit said was driving her toxic, chaotic behavior.
Gain a unique "insider" perspective on maternal narcissism.
Encounter a rare record of conversations about daughters of narcissistic mothers and maternal narcissistic abuse with channeled spiritual voices ranging from my deceased parents to Jeshua ben Joseph (the original Aramaic name for Jesus; Vol 2), the Divine Feminine (Vol 2), my soul council (spirit guides; Vol 3), and my soul (Vol 3).
Read the questions I asked the other side about abuse, enabling, forgiveness (this is never pushed on the reader; Vol 2), personal power, the first steps of healing (Vol 2), how long it takes to heal (it's not what you think; Vol 2), moving forward in life (Vol 3), and more.
Read the answers from the other side that shed light on why my narcissistic mother was the way she was, why my enabler father stood by, why I was the one she chose to abuse instead of my sibling, what was happening behind closed doors, and more.
Gain spiritual insight into the definition of narcissistic abuse, healing (Vol 2), forgiveness (again, forgiveness is never pushed on the reader; Vol 2), the soul-level why behind what happened (Vol 3), and more.
Gain insight into what my soul council and my soul revealed about healing, enough-ness, and stepping into a new life and a new identity no longer affected by my abusive narcissistic mother's lifelong impact on me (Vol 3).
Read a personal body of work that sheds rare behind-the-scenes light on the behavior of the narcissistic mother, the enabler father, and the emotional and survival patterns many daughters live with for decades (all volumes).
Explore my questions and spirit's answers that bring unique language to family dynamics, power, enabling, grief, identity, survival, narcissistic abuse, forces within, and more (all volumes).
"All three volumes of Talking to the Light include insights that couldn't have come from the human side of the relationship alone."
You are an adult daughter of a narcissistic mother and have questions about why she was the way she was, why she abused you, and more.
Therapy may have helped validate your experience, but it did not answer the true why.
You are spiritually open and want deeper understanding from the other side, not more earthly coping language/tools.
You are a spiritually open therapist or coach who supports daughters of narcissistic mothers and wants rare, deeper insight into the emotional, relational, and identity-level impact of maternal narcissistic abuse, the healing process, the forgiveness process, and more (you need all 3 volumes) .
"This is a rare, groundbreaking lens into maternal narcissism."
I spent over five decades wondering WHY.
I lived it, I asked the other side the hardest questions about maternal narcissistic abuse, healing, forgiveness, moving on in life, and more.
Now I speak from what those answers transformed in me.
I don’t just tell this story—I know how to translate it into truth, language, transformation, and meaning.
Therapy validated me and my experience with my narcissistic mother. That was extremely important! 10/10 recommend.
But I still ruminated on the questions I'd been wondering about for five decades: WHY. Why the hell did my mother abuse me?!
I wanted to thoroughly understand why my narcissistic mother was the way she was, why my enabler father stood by, why I lived through what I did, and what all of it meant.
For me, the issue was not that therapy had no value. It was that I knew I needed to go beyond where therapy could take me.
That's why I began working with a professional psychic medium.
I spoke with spiritual voices ranging from my deceased parents to Jeshua ben Joseph (the original Aramaic name for Jesus, pronounced Yeshua; Vol 2), the Divine Feminine (Vol 2), my soul council (my spirit guides; Vol 3), and my own soul (Vol 3).
These 9 conversations gave me the missing piece! They explained why and offered guidance that couldn't have come from the human side.
Some of the answers were personal to my life. Many of them hold a universality that may help other adult daughters of narcissistic mothers understand their own experience.
That is what Talking to the Light is: the body of work that came from asking the other side the hard questions about maternal narcissistic abuse and about WHY.
"I knew the real answers to the hard questions about why were on the other side.
Turns out I was right."
What changed everything for me was finally asking the deeper, harder questions and receiving answers specific to my life, my family, and my abusive mother—answers therapy had never been able to give me. These answers changed how I understood my life, my pain, and my own power.
Therapy helped me in real ways and I recommend it wholeheartedly, but these channeling sessions and the clarity they gave me are the BEST part of my healing journey.
Volume 1 is where I first began asking the difficult foundational family questions. Volume 2 is where those questions deepened at the divine level. Volume 3 is where I began embodying what I had learned at the soul level. Full circle. Full healing.
The answers I received from the other side did not erase my past, sugarcoat it, or excuse the abuse. They changed how I lived with it and gave me a different path forward into healing.
They eventually helped me move from confusion and anger into deeper understanding, self-trust, and a beautiful inner peace.
1 prologue introducing 53 years of gaslighting myself about the abuse and who my mother really was, the year the truth whispered then screamed, and the harrowing six months I lived under my parents’ roof as a caregiver during the covid pandemic
1 interlude explaining the panic and chaotic aftermath of my narcissistic mother’s death
1 short explanation of why I needed more than therapy
3 emotional channeling sessions with my deceased covert narcissistic mother’s spirit
1 clarifying channeling session with my deceased enabler father’s spirit
Appendix 1.1: Except transcript from recorded October 2020 incident with my mother when my awareness of her true nature begins to form. I gaslit myself for 53 years!
Appendix 1.2: My interpretations of her environmental triggers and emotional ecosystem during her final year of life
Appendix 1.3: Using personal power
Volume 1 includes the first 4 sessions in the larger Talking to the Light body of work and opens the parental-level questions at the heart of my 53 years of experience inside maternal narcissistic abuse.
In these sessions, I asked the questions every daughter has and never gets to ask directly.
SOME OF THE QUESTIONS I ASKED MY DECEASED PARENTS' SPIRITS:
Now that you’re on the other side, what do you want me to know about your time on Earth as my mother?
Do you see me differently now than you did when you were on Earth?
How does spirit explain narcissism?
Tell me more about what you just called the ____ inside you. Did I see it as a helpless child?
Why did you choose me as your target and not my sibling?
Why were you so obsessed with cleaning?
What was life like for you after Mom died?
Was Mom threatening and violent to you to the point you felt concerned for your safety or your life like I did?
Why didn’t you divorce Mom?
What do you want me to know about the father‘s role in surviving and protecting himself from his narcissistic wife?
Do you have a relationship with Mom on the other side?
Can you share with me what you’ve learned about using personal power now that you’re on the other side? Mom stripped our power away from us.
In 2023, I invested $10,000 to work with a professional psychic medium for six months. She led nine channeling sessions with six different spirit voices.
I transcribed every 45- to 60-minute session into Talking to the Light because these truths eventually helped me move from confusion and pain into full understanding and inner peace. I want other daughters of narcissistic mothers to have access to that, too.
At $111, the three volumes of Talking to the Light are only $37 each because I want this doorway to be easily accessible.
I live in Ohio. I've been married for 38 years, have three adult children, and a sweet little granddaughter.
I hope my answers project helps you as much as it's helped me.
53 years inside maternal narcissistic abuse + 5 years of self healing
Author, Talking to the Light
Founder & Creator, She Asked Why
Instagram: @she.asked.why.writes
"What came through in these channeling sessions exposed every lie I was raised on and gave me what I needed most: UNDERSTANDING."
PLEASE READ BEFORE YOU PURCHASE
This collection contains references to sensitive, sometimes intense, potentially triggering material. Occasional profanity.
The content in Talking to the Light reflects deeply personal spiritual experiences, channeled conversations with spirit, and emotional interpretations that may feel intense.
These experiences are not presented as verified facts or universal truths. They reflect my lived experience and belief system only.
Your interpretation of the material and your emotional, psychological, or spiritual response to it is your own responsibility.
I am not a therapist and this does not replace therapy.
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