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Talking to the Light

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A daughter of a narcissistic mother asks why through channeling her deceased parents' spirits, Jeshua ben Joseph, the Divine Feminine, her soul council, and her soul.

A 3-volume channeled transcript series that documents the hard questions I asked the other side about maternal narcissistic abuse, healing, forgiveness, power, and more + the answers that changed my life and identity.

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"This is a rare, groundbreaking lens into maternal narcissism."

This is for you if...

You are an adult survivor of a narcissist and have questions about why they were the way they were, why they abused you, and more.

Therapy may have helped validate your experience, but it did not answer the real why.

You are spiritually open and want deeper understanding from the other side, not more earthly coping language/tools.

You are a spiritually open therapist or coach who wants rare, deeper insight into the emotional, relational, and identity-level impact of narcissistic abuse, the healing process, the forgiveness process, and more .

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Speaking from the real answers that healed me

I spent over five decades wondering WHY.

I lived it, I asked the other side the hardest questions about narcissistic abuse, healing, forgiveness, moving on in life, and so much more.

Now I speak from how those answers helped heal me.

I don’t just tell this story—I know how to translate it into truth, language, transformation, and meaning.

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Therapy helped me, but it didn't answer WHY

Therapy validated me and my experience with my narcissistic mother.

But I still ruminated on the questions I'd been wondering about for five decades: WHY. Why the hell did my mother abuse me?!

I wanted to thoroughly understand why my narcissistic mother was the way she was, why my enabler father stood by, why I lived through what I did, and what all of it meant.

For me, the issue was not that therapy had no value. It was that I knew I needed to go beyond where therapy could take me.

The missing piece was going to the other side to talk to my deceased narcissistic mother's spirit to ask her WHY.

That's why I invested $10,000 into a six-month contract with a professional psychic medium.

Through conversations with my deceased parents, Jeshua ben Joseph, the Divine Feminine, my soul council, and my soul, I received the answers, perspective, and spiritual guidance that helped tie everything together so I could heal and move forward in life.

Talking to the Light is the body of work that came from those transcribed spiritual conversations.

It was the BEST part of my healing journey because it gave me what nothing else had been able to give me: family truth, spiritual perspective, and soul-level understanding to tie everything together.

Some of the answers were personal to my life.

Most of the answers hold a universality that may help other adult daughters of narcissistic mothers understand their own experience.

Get the real answers to WHY

"I knew the real answers to the hard questions about why were on the other side.

Turns out I was right."

How these channeling sessions helped me

What changed everything for me was finally asking the deeper, harder questions and receiving answers specific to my life, my family, and my abusive mother—answers therapy had never been able to give me.

These answers changed how I understood my life, my pain, and my own power.

Therapy helped me in real ways and I recommend it wholeheartedly, but these channeling sessions and the clarity they gave me are the BEST part of my healing journey.

Volume 1 is where I first began asking the difficult, foundational family questions.

Volume 2 is where those questions deepened at the divine level.

Volume 3 is where I began embodying what I had learned at the soul level.

The answers I received from the other side did not erase my past, sugarcoat it, or excuse the abuse. They changed how I live with it and gave me a different path forward into healing.

They eventually helped me move from confusion and anger into deeper understanding, self-trust, and a beautiful inner peace.

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"What came through in these channeling sessions exposed every lie I was raised on and gave me what I needed most: UNDERSTANDING."

What you get

A rare insider record of conversations about narcissistic abuse with channeled spiritual voices ranging from my deceased parents to Jeshua ben Joseph (the original Aramaic name for Jesus), the Divine Feminine, my soul council (spirit guides), and my soul.

Volume 1: Where the answers began

3 rare channeling sessions with my deceased narcississtic mother's spirit

1 rare channeling session with my deceased enabler father's spirit

3 post-healing appendices

Every answer to every hard question I asked

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Why did you choose me as your target instead of my sibling?

Now that you’re on the other side, what do you want me to know about your time on Earth as my mother? Do you see me differently now than you did when you were on Earth?

How does spirit explain narcissism? Is it a playbook for the other side?

Tell me about what you just called the ____ inside you. Did I see it as a helpless child?

What do you want me to know about the father‘s role in surviving and protecting himself from his narcissistic wife?

Was Mom threatening and violent to you to the point you felt concerned for your safety or your life like I did?

What was life like for you after Mom died? You had six months of living free from her abuse.

Appendix 1.1: Except transcript from recorded October 2020 incident with my mother when my awareness of her true nature begins to form. I gaslit myself for 53 years!

Appendix 1.2: My interpretations of her environmental triggers and emotional ecosystem during her final year of life.

Appendix 1.3: Using personal power.

"This perspective combines my 58 years of lived experience with insights most daughters of narcissistic mothers never get to see."

Volume 2: Where the answers deepened

1 channeling session with Jeshua ben Joseph, the original Aramaic name for Jesus, pronounced Yeshua

1 channeling session with the Divine Feminine

1 joint channeling session with Jeshua and my mother's spirit. Yes, together!

These conversations bring a wide and deeper perspective to everything in Volume One.

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What was the karma with my mother about?

Can you share about forgiveness in a manner that would deeply touch people like me? Note: forgiveness is never pushed on the reader.

Now that I’m on a journey to find my true self after abuse, what do you want me to know?

Why do I feel so much pressure even though my mother is gone?

How long should it take to heal?

What is the first thing people like me who are still in the trenches of being on the receiving end of narcissistic abuse need to do?

What are the karmic patterns that have been meeting me over different lifetimes? How do I break them?

What is the most powerful tool people like me have?

Will my mom incarnate soon and will she be part of my life in a loving, kind way?

Appendix 2.1: What Jeshua said about forgiveness [Note: forgiveness is never pushed on the reader. This subject is shared at spirit's request.]

Appendix 2.2: Karmic cycles

Volume 3: Where the answers landed

1 channeling session with my soul council (spirit guides)

1 channeling sessions with my soul

Volume 3 naturally continues the journey forward at the soul level.

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How do you communicate with me?

Can you give me some insight into what’s next? I don't want to make any wrong turns now that I'm free.

If I still think I’m not enough, what does being enough sound like or look like? I thought I was making progress in that area. Is there any guidance?

What are the lessons my soul is here to learn?

What is the blueprint that was created during my pre-birth planning at the soul level?

Is my soul actually seeing and experiencing the growth it wanted to?

Who are my guides and do they control my life like a puppeteer?

What is my soul's age?

Appendix 3.1: Worthiness in the now

Appendix 3.2: What it feels like to have forgiveness [Note: forgiveness is never pushed on the reader. This Appendix is included at spirit's request.]

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"All three volumes of 'Talking to the Light' include insights that couldn’t have come from the human side of the relationship alone."

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Before I ever reached across the veil to ask why, I turned to books.

These three books are not about narcissistic abuse. They felt illuminating, expansive, and revolutionary.

In this free bonus, I share the exact three titles and the order to read them for deepest impact. Book #2 is a great read after Talking to the Light: Volume 2.

If we were chatting at a cozy coffee shop, these are the books I'd tell you to read. I recommend them to friends.

About

In 2023, I invested $10,000 to work with a professional psychic medium for six months. She led nine channeling sessions with six different spirit voices.

I transcribed every 45- to 60-minute session into Talking to the Light because these truths helped me eventually move from confusion and pain into full understanding and inner peace. I want other daughters of narcissistic mothers to have access to that, too.

At $111, the three volumes of Talking to the Light are only $37 each because I want this doorway to be easily accessible.

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Carole Murphy

53 years inside maternal narcissistic abuse + 5 years of self healing

Author, Talking to the Light

Founder & Creator, She Asked Why

Instagram: @narc.abuse.survivor.cammie @she.asked.why.writes

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Is this therapy?

No. Talking to the Light is not therapy and does not replace therapy. I am not a therapist or licensed professional.

This is a channeled transcript series based on my lived experience and the questions I asked during my own channeling sessions.

My experience was one of rapid inner alignment once I received the answers I had been seeking. Though alignment came quickly, I still had to work through embodiment.

Others may move through that process differently and may want additional support as they integrate what arises.

Is this religious?

No. Talking to the Light is spiritual, not religious. It reflects my lived experience with channeling and spiritual inquiry, but it does not ask you to follow a religion or doctrine.

Is this triggering?

Yes, it most likely will be. The material is real, raw, and emotionally honest. Occasional profanity throughout.

Each session transcript begins with an introduction to help orient you to the topic so you can move through the material at your own pace.

Did you use AI to write Talking to the Light?

I don’t enjoy reading AI generated content.

In fact, I avoid reading anything written with that telling ChatGPT voice. I’m sure you know what I mean.

That said, here’s my AI transparency note:

-I used AI to assist with my antiquated writing. Turns out the writing I learned in 10th grade honors English back in 1983 is outdated (old Mrs. Otey would be disappointed).

-Sometimes AI generated wording and punctuation that matched what I would use, so I kept those elements in the body of work.

-I used AI to help me through writing the sections of Talking to the Light that are based on very traumatic lived experiences that were too difficult to write. I rewrote what was generated by ChatGPT into my own voice. Writing through tears is challenging, to say the least.

-The voice and story are mine and are rooted 100% in lived experience.

Do I need to believe in channeling for this to be useful?

You likely need to be open to the possibility of channeling or spiritual communication in order for this work to resonate fully.

This series is rooted in my real belief in these sessions and the truths I found in them. Even so, some readers may still connect with the questions, themes, and insights if they are spiritually curious.

Is this only for daughters whose mothers have died?

No. It may also resonate with daughters whose mothers are still alive, especially if they have unanswered questions that may never be resolved through direct conversation.

It may also resonate with sons of narcissistic mothers.

Is this only for daughters of narcissistic mothers?

My deepest lived experience is as a daughter with a narcissistic mother. That is the heart of this work.

Some readers navigating other narcissistic relationships may still find parts of it meaningful, but Talking to the Light was created specifically for adult daughters of narcissistic mothers because that's my wheelhouse.

How will I receive the volumes?

You’ll receive the volumes in PDF format instantly on the receipt page after purchase and by email.

What is the bonus booklist for?

The bonus curated booklist is included with this bundle. The books are not specifically about maternal narcissistic abuse, but they were meaningful and very helpful in my healing and spiritual transformation.

Is this video content?

No. Talking to the Light is not video content. Each 45- to 60-minute channeling session was fully transcribed by me into written form. I wove my interpretations, raw reactions, and true lived experience throughout the transcripts.

Is this a personal reading for me?

No. Talking to the Light shares the answers I received about my own life, my parents, and my healing. It is not a personal reading or a promise of answers specific to your individual situation. Its value is in the insight, resonance, and perspective readers may draw from it for their own journey.

Did you heal immediately after the 9 channeling sessions?

No, not immediately, but I did feel better. I was able to accept the answers and understandings quickly, but I still needed time to process what came through in the sessions.

The guidance I received from Jeshua, the Divine Feminine, my soul council, and my soul (all found in Volumes 2 and 3) helped me continue processing, integrating, and moving forward.

Are you a psychic medium?

No.

PLEASE READ BEFORE YOU PURCHASE

This collection contains references to sensitive, sometimes emotional, potentially triggering material. Occasional profanity.

The content in Talking to the Light reflects deeply personal spiritual experiences, channeled conversations, and emotional interpretations that may feel intense.

These experiences are not presented as verified facts or universal truths. They reflect my lived experience and belief system only.

Your interpretation of the material and your emotional, psychological, or spiritual response to it are your own responsibility.

I am not a therapist and this does not replace therapy.

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